Connected.

I remember I used to use these journals to write my emotions out. I used to hate writing about my day cause it seemed so mundane and pointless, cause if i really wanted to share my day I would’ve shared them with the people who spent those days with me.

It’s all a bit different now I guess. Now to pour out my thoughts and emptying my heart becomes too risky, and i’m afraid of being judged and labeled. Cause let’s just be honest now, using words and phrases like “Emptying your heart” and “writing out my emotions” have been used over and over again in cliche songs who want to make their inner struggles more important than the things that go on in the real world. A desperate attempt to want to be heard. 

It’s a funny thing though don’t you think? Wanting to be heard. We were born and the first thing we do is cry to tell the world we’re frightened, in pain, hungry or just in need. We grow up and we evolve and learn to convey those same things into more complex forms of sounds, syllables, and tones. We speak. We even go as far to want to place emotion into what we say, add art and creativity so we can organize our tones and learn to rhyme and learn to manipulate our hearts with beats and melodies. We sing. We even go farther to map out the spoken into the written with symbols that can be put together to form the words and sentences we speak. We write. We sure went through a lot of trouble didn’t we?

We used to live miles away from each other so in our efforts to stay connected we sent the written word over great distance that were delivered with great care to make sure it would make it. It took days but when it arrived we treasured those words on paper as much as the person who wrote them almost. This then evolved to wanting hear the human voice. So we made devices that would allow our voices to travel over great distances almost instantly. We then think why not be able to send mail instantly as well? we learn of electronic mail using phone lines to transfer large amounts of data instantly. We learn we could use this to mail hundreds or thousands of people instantly all around the world at once. This becomes fast and faster and with that more and more people are “connected.” Video conferencing? no problem. Wanting to see someone in Japan from the states, done with a push of a button. With this, possibilities are endless. 

and here comes the irony, with the power of choices we lose the power to be able to choose. The power overwhelms us we can’t decide which form to use, how to use it, when to use it and we think we can do it anytime, but we end up doing it… none of the time. See with everyone being constantly “connected” we lose the desire and lose sight of the need to actually connect. Cause they’re right there. 

People are closer than ever, but just cause a million people are crammed into a subway train doesn’t mean any of them need to speak to each other. I have no idea who that person was that brushed their shoulder up to me. I sit in coffee shops for hours and i’ve never spoken to a single person other than to order my coffee. 

It’s no wonder that in our generation now we have so many people screaming out that no one knows them. People crying out for attention by just crying out their emotions. The don’t cry to tell people they’re frightened, they’re in pain, or they’re hungry. They fear now cause no one comes. They are in pain so people will feel for them. They hunger so people will look at them. 

I guess this isn’t that new is it though? We’ve had a someone who’s been there who’s wanting to listen to us constantly. Hear our struggles, strengthen our needs. He’s closer than anyone in the world and has never left our side. I think that’s probably why we tell ourselves it’s ok He’s there. I can speak to Him whenever, in whatever form I want. I don’t even need to talk. Yet it’s through this thought process that we end up feeling so distant. Why we cry out and say why don’t you understand us? know us? when we don’t spend the time to know Him. More Irony right? When we spend the time to let Him know us intimately we then also end up knowing Him even more intimately or vise versa etc. etc. however you put it you can’t have one happen without the other, but instead we remain silent. 

I hate how I have to wait till I feel so distant for me to treasure Him speaking, singing, and writing into my life. The Word, is a powerful thing. I just wish I would listen more.

~ by myusings on January 22, 2009.